It is why people think I am a quiet, studious child.
Fact is, I make a fool of myself on a regular basis when just with friends.
So why not everyone else?
Is it like some kind of defence mechanism - don’t let people in, and so forth?
I’m the girl who walks to work grinning ear to ear, and the girl on the bus looks like she’s in her early 20's, in the sunnies, cheek slightly pulled back in a lopsided grin as if she knows something you don't.
I dance in my room with the music pumped up loud enough I can’t hear myself think, and I’m sure the neighbours would complain except that their teenager went through this phase too - but his was always hard rock and metal. Mine is too.... 'Cept for the fact I don’t like metal too. Who cares, its noise, and it’s nice noise XD
I bounce around laughing, playing with my pup, and singing loud my favourite songs when I walk the older one. I’m the one in the daggy car with the window rolled down and the bass up as high as it goes, singing to snow patrol or MIA or something similar.
And you know what, if that is embarrassing............. I don’t care.
It makes me me and I love who I am. I love whom I am around. I love that I don’t fight like we used to, and I’m not as moody as I used to be (posts re this were deleted due to parental request after one was emailed to the principal and I got a phone call.... much humiliation had XD). I love that summer is here even though its mid November, and that I can run around in my bathers again and it doesn’t look out of place, I love that my room is TIDY, and that I’m still high off my first truly independent 'me' day, while still being productive.
Got the inspirational music from Coldplay belting thru the speaker next to me, making my skin tingle for some reason (harmonies do that to me). And as they have beautifully put 'that was when I ruled the world'. My friends, this time is coming again and I’m feeling so amazing that
NOTHING CAN BRING ME DOWN:):):):):):):)