I'm not going to lie - am rather deflated over the notion of no proper relationship connection. Don't get me wrong, I strongly believe that we'll be around each other a long time still, but I want what he can't give right now. Easy solution is to be patient. Which I have no choice but to do, even though I'd rather make it all happen now.
I want to know what I can do, how I can win the game, and win his heart, like I won his kisses.
but in the back of my mind, I think that I will never see this part of him, because She holds him still. I see it in his eyes as well as i see it in his words. Because it ended from necessity rather than choice, i suspect. The label of 'friend' isnt enough. Not for me. Not this time.