i finally invented a word that sums up my relationship with society at the moment:
the person i want to be with most lives 13265.50 kilometres away (i checked... how sad am i)
i have neither the money nor the time to make money to fly over and say hi.
i don't have $3100 for a ticket (i checked that too)
i dont have the freedom to fall in love with someone that i can't see, but i think that i am.
life in this area sucks.