Monday, 1 December 2008


As it stands, there is a little bubble of irritation in my chest right now, partially blocking off my blood supply. Last night, it was a big bubble of fury. I don't feel like that often. For good reason:
"Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret" -

So I write my thoughts here, like always, and will then express my opinion in person later this week....

How dare you criticise where I direct my feelings. Is this because you're trying to stir the pot? Or, suddenly did you realised that you don't matter in this part of my life any more? Shock horror! You're my past, it's time you stayed there. It's only 55 words on a 1x2 inch screen.
Only words. Why do people say that? Words can kill someone's spirit. break them.
Well, the fact still remains that these words, broke the last bit. The last little, tiny bit, that still held any kind of feelings in relation to you. I'm sure in 20 years I'll look back and say, "Yeah, that's him, he's the one I loved once.... he's the one that broke me. And this one is the one that picked up my pieces." Ya, I'm hurt you said this. But people move on. I don't believe that this is as simple as the upfront meaning, it never is with you. You're the one I've forgiven most, out of all my friends I've ever had, you were the special one. Break's over. I know you're my friend, and you may be trying to warn me, but, I really don't think you're the best person to be warning of making a romantic mistake. If I fall, I fall. I choose to take that leap of faith, that risk. Because, sometimes, it's worth the fall, if only for the chance at that which you're leaping for. And I genuinely believe that what I'm leaping for, is worth a broken heart. So, in lieu of that, I respectfully tell you to mind your own business.

45 minutes

1 comment:

  1. I remember my ex said to me "They're only text messages". That hurt.