right now, i'm broken. so this is just a fast note to ask forgiveness for any depressive or angry posts. this is me trying to deal with a hell of a lot of grief.

i want to push everyone away, to lock myself in my room for a few weeks and be utterly miserable.
thats a waste of time.
i have to return to the state of mind where i'm excited about seeing people i like being around. right now that just brings one name to mind, and thats not much fun at this moment, because, like i said once before, i feel like someone i love just died.
and i don't like it. not one bit.